Spring Cleaning

28 Feb


Snow and cold have produced literally no travel for me this last month. Not only were the conditions pretty miserable, but I honestly could not find activities which interested me enough to go.  My focus is shifting and I have had to rest in a no-woman’s land of sorts. Spiritual quest is fuzzy, perhaps Lenten discipline will sharpen the view.

February has been about relationships.

Learning about what’s there and what is missing.

And I have learned quite a lot.

I’ve learned how to allow, to not try to help someone or change them. To accept them for who they are. But then, somehow I need to journey on.  I think the choice which puzzles me most is this: Is it better to be barefoot than have a shoe that doesn’t fit?  Some shoes rub blisters and of course, they have to go. Some sort of fit, an attraction prompted the purchase. But is there buyer’s remorse?  Maybe they just don’t go with one’s style after all, not a daily wearing pair one comes to love so much it seems impossible to be without them. Or maybe they can only be worn for short periods before becoming incredibly uncomfortable; perhaps one can’t wear them on any occasion. Maybe they are just too impractical or just too average. That great balance of comfort, practicality, and excitement just seems…missing.

It’s that moment when cleaning out the closet, a woman hesitates…do I give them away? It’s a perfectly good pair, just not perfectly good for me. Do I walk the road barefoot again now that my feet have become soft, so used to shoes?

I’ve written only poetry in February and painted.  My art has blossomed and soon, I hope for a show. One of my pieces received great comments at the Georgia Morgan Art Show, good enough to keep me going. So I’m painting, writing poetry, and trying to write some fiction on the side for class. March will soon bring green, and I must decide what to keep in my closet, and what to put aside before summer and a return to the road.

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